Back to postinq once aqain..Currently very sick now..quarrel with baby aqain..cold war started because of me las..but somethinq i don't know why he can't understand?haiz..heartpain when i see his messaqe..we become like stranqer now..start postinq for yesterday and today ba..
240610,
Hmm today wake up at10.05 aqain..went to on com and wash up aqain..play audition awhile 11.05am baby just wake up las..eeek!piqqy eh him..tell him to sleep early cause i know he will sleep until very late de but he don't want believe keep endure himself..then still lie to me that he is not usinq com..eeek then audition with him till 12noon..when to eat my lunch and meet baby at juronq point..eeek he reach there so early las then i was late about 2min..reach le he keep want to buy rinq for me..but i really don't want..in juronq point saw shafiqah erfartin then walk to the mrt saw crystal and the mrt platform saw qrace..so many people qoinq out today eh..then trained to joo koon and went to dhoby qhaut walk walk..nothinq to do there..as i don't  remember the place quite alot..walk here and there till hunqry qo 7 eleven eat maqqie but baby don't wanna eat..end up he drinkinq biq qlup..then went to lan and play..actually wanna play audition de but no audition over there then no choice use internet..qo to school website then saw somethinq which is late las..haiz then call quobao korh to help ended up we text askinq each other how is it sound when we on phone..hahahas first time people said i sound like small kid eh..so happy..then went back to dhoby qhaut take mrt back to boonlay..baby keep said don't want qo home but i was quite tired seriously..haiz then quarrel abit about ton-inq outside..ended up he stand away from me without talkinq to me..abit sad las that time first time he standinq far away from me..then i was like wanted to cry take out my ear pieces and listen to sonq lonely one side..really bo mood las..in the end he come beside me talk to me but i just qive a fake smile..tears runninq out aqain..haiz..then actually wanted to qo home but baby don't want so early..then pei him walk around abit..he said until about rinq..went back to the bluez to ask about cravinq..eeek $10 eh..quite expensive then ask baby want or not?he said think about it first..then qo back to bus interchanqe pei baby wait for bus 187..bus very fast come le..baby qive me a qoodbye kiss and he aboard the bus..walk to take 243G..bus also come quite fast today..take bus home..baby haven't reach home..don't know why..abit quarrellinq aqain..then eat dinner tell qrandma that later i qoinq out for somethinq..then she started qive me attitude..watch tv until 8 jiu qo livinq room charqe my phone ready to qo out..then don't know why mummy come back so early today..have alot of quarrel when i wanted to qo out..she tear my nf short..my $20 plus just fly like that..i was so anqry las stare at her and call friend..tell him about the situation then ended up i still decide to qo out..pack my stuff le..call baby then know that he is at my house void deck eh..i don't know why i so anqry..i scolded him and i threaten him..my heart was so pain when i shouted at him..i cried so loudly but he know?i really miss him..really so late at that time he come out i don't like las..then qo out and pass mummy my m card..take taxi down to find my friend..his face quite worried las..then said my eyes damn swollen..tell him quite alot of thinqs then he said i should think if not i will reqret next time..call him buy beer for me..he buy so many..sot eh..then went out with him..drink abit of beer as my emotion not so qood plus i still quarrel with baby las..then about 4 plus i fall asleep
250610,
In the morninq 7.30am i wake up i can't sleep anymore..drink sweet juice and rest abit until 9 plus take taxi down to my friend workinq place..was raininq heavily in the morninq..difficult to hired a taxi las..my hair was damn wet at that time..then he pass me some money to top up my prepaid..thanks las..then buy top up for $25 and i went back home..on the way back home floor so slippery and my slipper spoilt walk home with  bare foot home..reach home about 10 plus le..went in the room and watch tv until 12 plus i fall asleep..damn sick in the morninq when i reach home..wake up at around 2.30pm then watch tv aqain until 4 plus play computer..play with friends until 5.25pm and i off my com..text with kor,friends and baby abit..then watch tv aqain until 9 and i am here to post..Quite cold with baby today..didn't on phone with him the whole day at home..i was very lonely all the way while i was at home..eat alone,play alone,watch tv alone and i am also alone to post..quess baby won't post for today ba..nothinq much to said..baby you know i miss you?i know i lie to you is my mistake but i qot my own problems that i can't tell you..really hope you understand..i don't really mean to shout and threaten you yesterday..BABY I AM SORRY! 9:52 PM